Weekender

  No real victories this weekend, but no huge failures either. I keep teetering back and forth between "look at this great choice I made" to "don't look now, there's a piece of cake staring at you". And so I gave in to a piece of cake. I also chose to eat an apple instead of chips. I drank water instead of soda, I gave in and drank lite beer. Its been a crazy weekend! Tomorrow is Tuesday, a better day.

Exercise?!

  How does one have time to do this? I worked from 9 AM to 8 PM today. I am back in the office tomorrow at around ten (two hours early) so I'm not there all night again. THAT should be exercise enough!

Starving!

I learned a valuable lesson today: take snacks to work! I ate a frozen low cal lunch at three, which was fine until about 6 PM. I started getting hungry. And hungrier until I left work at 8:30. I finally got home after gritting my teeth past a gas station (possible unhealthy snack option) and the rest of my 30 minute commute. I walk through the door and dinner wasn't quite ready. I had a small bowl of salad; plain with some blue cheese dressing (just a little bit) to take the edge off. But I scarfed down some pasta and bread like I knew I would two hours ago! I was so hungry I couldn't help it! I didn't do great today, but I learned something about myself, and about another challenge that I'm going to have to work with: I work long hours and if I am to be successful and not fall back into bad habits, I need to work smarter, not harder! Bring lots of snacks to work, maybe baby carrots, an apple or orange, maybe a dietary shake or bar; something to not make me a raving she-wolf when I get home.  I need to make up my salads before I go to bed. I did refrain from drinking soda today at work! YAY!! Instead, I drank about a Liter of Polar Seltzer water. It was flavored without sugar, zero carbs, calories and sodium. Gotta feel good about that!

Sheer Panic

  A surprise visit from... you guessed it! The future In-Laws!! Holy quick clean, Batman! Question: when the FMIL calls and says that they are coming over in the next hour and you spring to action to clean like a madwoman for an hour, does that count as exercise? I think so; I was sweating and cussin' and those are two things that happen when I work out. On a more serious note, I did read somewhere that cleaning your house can burn a significant amount of calories.
  I did end up going to the store today and bought all healthy food! YAY! So far I have eaten: Greek Chicken Salad (sans dressing!) for lunch, and just had a snack of cottage cheese (about 3/4 cup). I even bought some polar springs flavored tonic water. I hear they are great for those of us trying to get off of diet soda.
  I need to invest in a great workout tape. My living space is small and I have a huge dog. Does anyone have any suggestions? I will do some research and post my findings.
  Al is still cooking, and he is now trying to convince me that cornbread is good for me! Men!

Victory or Fail?

I had an OK time of it yesterday. I didn't eat anything especially healthy except an apple for my late afternoon snack. I think it was a Fuji. Red and yellow striped, a firm skin and bite, with a sweet meat that didn't have that bitter aftertaste. Yum. I did take a second glance at my portions. Usually when I eat Chinese food (leftovers from the other day) I will heap it on. I love me a huge greasy bowl of fried rice! This time, it was a medium sized bowl of fried rice... Yes I know, it was still fried rice, but give me a break! 
I have yet to have my aha moment. I'm sure it wont click for a while, and I still need to purge the fridge and pantry and go shopping to replace everything. I don't know if I could go grocery shopping with my fiance and walk out of there with two or three healthy meals. I mean healthy. None of the fun stuff. I think after a couple of weeks, I should have my aha moment. I just hope that I can hang in there until it happens.
My fiance is making brisket AND homemade bacon baked beans tonight on the grill. He started to BBQ at 8:15 AM and probably wont be finished until early evening. DELISH! So... I will have some of his brisket and beans, but i think my main course should be a salad. I wonder what kind of salad goes best with BBQ?

Day one

I failed. I hope that I do better tomorrow. Today I ate: a packet of maple and brown sugar pop tarts, for breakfast. i also ate some lean cuisine stuff and a cheeseburger for dinner. I drank some crystal light, a rockstar with only ten calories, and some beer. I ate some popcorn, half a piece of cake and  have generally overate all day. Overeating is my weakness. The first day is a fail overall. I drank too much. I ate too much. BUT tomorrow is another day. I'll keep you posted.

Once there was a girl...

 This story starts out like most, there once was a girl who needed a change. My change starts today. I have started a public venue for anyone to read. I want to be held accountable, be inspired and maybe help someone else become inspired too.
 I am getting married October 13th 2012. A little more than a year away. I am very excited to walk down the isle to meet my love. I am not excited to see the photos of my big butt doing it. I want to be honest in my endeavor and tell everyone that I wear a size 20 wedding dress. I want to try and get it down as much as possible for the big day. I'm thinking that me minus 60 lbs could be a nice 14. I haven't been there in a while.
 My tools: a healthy eating plan, a gym membership and a dog that needs walking. And water. Lots of water. I want to add some things and take away. I will need lots of support and willpower. I will definitely be cranky and tired. But this is for the rest of my life. They say that it takes roughly 30 days to form a habit, lets see what happens, shall we?